Welcome to...
THE POLYMATHIC VOYAGE!
created March 30th, 2026
Hello, Traveller. I'm Irosa Leilani Kamealoha! Say goodbye to land and come aboard my wa'a, where we will journey cross a vast intellectual landscape:
Philosophy, Literature, and Art; Chemistry, Biology, and Physics; Mathematics, Computer Science, and Politics are all at our fingertips as we make a stop at each of these unique, vibrant and bustling islands of human forfeiture (to the whims of nature, to the ails of psychology...)
The purpose of this website is for me to share my academic and artistic work with the world! More specifically, I'll be sharing my answers to textbook problems, essays on philosophy and literature, and reviews/critique of media. Alongside these, I'll be sharing personal projects like drawings, music, videogames, or stories that I'm writing. Since I'm doing so many different disciplines, do set your expectations fairly low. I'm merely an enthusiastic young adult with an interest in everything; at the ripe-old age of 20, I sadly cannot master everything at once! I expect my academic work to come off as fairly crackpot-ish, and my artwork to come off as amateur, up until they reach a level that I am satisfied with! And, of course, I'll never be satisfied. I'll try my best to teach you these topics, but truthfully I'll only provide explanations and videos for the topics I learn for me and me alone. I don't want others to know that I know these topics, and while I do love it when another person finally understands something because I taught it to them (oh, my child, the light in your eyes is so beautiful! I can't believe that gleam is mine~) I want to prioritize my journey for now.
Right now, you're at my homepage! Here you'll find my biography, edits, and an expansion upon my philosophy when creating this site, told through a 4-part poem and a diatribe. Besides these, you'll find links to all of my "homework." These aren't intended to be references or actual academic articles, these only serve the purpose of sharing my progress since the process of being wrong and getting corrected when you're wrong is more important than being right, and not many people showcase this part of their intellectual journey. I'll also show the dates when I publish these things. Pay close attention to that, as my biggest issue is time management and consistency. The life of an academic is not linear, and the dates at which I post my work and the non-linear fashion which my intellectual progress ebbs and flows is the most important thing to observe for a visitor. It's a live exploration of someone who wishes to be a polymath and the life skills/techniques they must learn to reach that goal. In no sense is my story determined: I have no way of knowing if I'll become a once-in-a-generation genius or another forgotten failure who tried to be a scholar and ultimately ended up lost to the annals of time. Whatever becomes of me, I'll say that I don't care. At this moment in time, and forever until the end of my life, I will be determined to become a true polymath. History be damned. If nothing else, use this website as inspiration for your journey. It's not defined what you'll become, but you will become greater than you are, no matter what happens.
Hello! My name is Irosa Leilani Kamealoha :3 I like to be seen as a cutesy-type person who just so happens to love academics and has a lot to say! Yes, my overall demeanor and the depths of what I have to say oftentimes contradicts what I wanna be seen as (a no-brain clueless cutiepie) but I refuse to sacrifice any facet of my personality to appease a fake image!!! I AM CUTE AND YOU CAN'T TELL ME OTHERWISE. I'M THE CUTEST CRITICAL RACE THEORIZING QUEER STUDIES MATHEMATICAL PHYSICIST YOU'VE EVER SEEN. And I'll be that adorable until I die. Sorry!!! Anyways, even though I just forced you to think of me in a certain way I'm going to now give you some info about who I am factually! I am a Transgender, Pansexual Filipino/Native Hawaiian who's studying Mathematics and Physics in university. I (proudly x3) go to an R1 university, which I will not share here because I don't wanna dox myself. My career interests are particle physics and homotopy theory (Praise me, praise me, yes I know. I'm so smart for liking hard things~) and I desire to become a professional scholar of those topics. One day, I hope to work on the edges of algebraic geometry and theoretical physics, contributing both to mathematics and physics as my primary legacy. Besides that, I am an aspiring composer/singer-songwriter/producer who's enthusiastic about music as a whole. I'll make anything from breakbeat to classical music, and I don't discriminate when it comes to musical beauty. And, after this I'll just start bragging because I'm just so proud of who I am becoming! Besides my initial interests in music and science, I'm picking up an interest in books, drawing, writing, and videogame development. Praise me, praise me! x3 I know, I'm so cool. I'm ALSO doing philosophy!!! ... hehehe, yeah... yEAHHH!!! And also I'm learning more about political theory and gender identity and critical race theory, the most awesomest stuff ever... Those are like, my main interests or whatevs but I could totally learn history and cool stuff or whatever it's no biggie. Okay I'm leaving now, bye!!!
We are intellectual voyagers.
Our home is the universe,
and we seek the panoply of knowledge so we can glimpse at her.
The plurality of models will help us to map,
via rigorous explanation,
that which
we seek to find.
My only rule for you is:
Be aware that you seek your truth.
Love the plurality of discourse.
Hold the lack of one true answer as sacred,
and give your answer life through it.
The intellectual voyagers only seek to understand their meaning in life and seek to understand their answer through studying and understanding the answers of others. We see the truths others have laid bare for us so that we may understand what truth we are looking for. Even if we didn't know the answer we were trying to find in the first place.
You and I know who I am, and we have both been ashamed many times over what we tried to become. I know what I want to be, but yet the line between "trying" and "trying too hard" often blurs. Where do I begin, when am I trying to force my identity into existence, how do I forge my own path, where do I let nature guide me into the place I'm supposed to be at? The truth is, me, that I cannot answer these questions for you. I know my soul seeks something and yet I fear those fears that others have laid upon me. Am I doing too much? Do I care too much? Should I care less? Will I become a pseudoscientist if I care a lot, will my "truth" be compromised if I seek out only to satisfy some kind of intellectual thirst that I inherited from years of surface-level content that wanted to educate me? No, there is no point dwelling on imagined "issues" anymore. Fear, anxiety, shame, worry, these things all hurt my ability to grow. I'm given a lot of tools and I must learn how to properly use them. Google, Wikipedia, Books, PDFs, The Internet, and most importantly my own brain help me to understand what I must understand. In a sense, I am performing. I know that people don't have prejudices against those, but will have a prejudice against using AI. I know that people will have negative views towards a great many things. My own friend sees my love of the classics as "pretentious" and "snobbish." What I must barter with my soul is this: to what point do I fear the publics opinion of me? Do I fear being pretentious? Do I fear being seen as an "AI Bro?" The truth is: I fear being seen negatively. But then I go deeper in my soul and ask myself this: Are you using AI to make your life easier or are you using it in the pursuit of truth? The answer is: I don't fucking want AI to write my essays for me. I don't want AI to give me a quick and easy answer. I just want AI to give me a summary of something so that I make sure I didn't miss any points I didn't think of. And even then, that's only a first go at it, just to help me build stronger fundamentals. Even as I typed that, my anxiety peaked as I imagined a host of people, in their minds, going, "that's an excuse." If you want the truth, it's an excuse in that it does make my life easier, and I'm ashamed to admit I used AI to make my life easier before. But as with all things, I must learn moderation. I need to learn to tow the line between tool and convenience, a line I failed to balance on before. Yes, I failed at balancing my time with electronics, TV, and other content systems, but I must continue forcing myself to try. Look at me, I learned basic HTML when initially I didn't want to do that! I pushed through that fear and wrote this stream-of-conciousness for all to see. A true peak into my mind and a delve deep into what I am feeling and thinking, so that all is displayed on the table upon first finding my website. But remember, my soul, you must let this public lens inform you as much as it scares you. Remember improvising piano in public, at that hospital, for the first time? I remember feeling: I wish I was less anxious and allowed myself to be free, to let the audience see me for who I am rather than forcing myself to be quiet; the beauty of me playing piano in a hospital is that I wanted to soothe those hospital patients, and if only I had improvised with the intent to soothe rather than the intent not to bother, than I could've come up with something truly extraordinary, as the feelings I wanted the audience to feel and their immediate possible reception, alongside my own expectations of what I wanted to communicate, informed my artwork in interesting and view-changing ways that I never could've seen on my own. It is in this regard that I must remember to view sharing my artwork as: a reason to improve and to live, no-not the reason to improve, but as the guide on how to improve. I myself cannot improve on AI and self-criticism alone. I need the love and critique of an audience who can see my level, and where I'm at, and adjust their criticism towards that acknowledgement of my skill level. I've been criticized for a great many things, and being pretentious is one of them. But, even if I know I'm, in a sense, performing for the public, I must remind myself:
O'I would write about Hawaii if I could,
Speak Hawaiian and
reminisce about Waianae.
But I must accept who I truly am,
The displaced native, the
indigenous sister lost to
a war, the battle of
cash and ownership;
Of our land,
and our homes;
to reduce our culture to a
tourist's first destination,
my family fell victim.
A native queen who was overthrown by racists in 1893,
A native peoples who were forcefully annexed in 1898,
An unwanted statehood misrepresented in 1959
and a pivot from agriculture through the 60's,
began a battle against my culture that my family fell to.
Thus I must see myself as who I truly am:
A white-washed native who seeks their home.
An AI-Using, yet AI-Despise
The use of AI in modern day life.
But to stay truthful,
To who I have been,
I border on fraudulent
AI usage, cause
In pursuit of the talent and fame I want-
Intellectual glory, that's what I want-
I do lose track of what I wish,
What I truly wish to become.
I cannot rush this journey,
And so, I'll invite you to critique me here.
Join me, Leilani, and remember:
Although I yearn for approval,
I care more for truth.
When I'm reminded that I tainted my journey,
When I've lost track of who I truly am;
despite all the critics, all the attention
despite the fear of being seen,
When I realize I've lost track of myself,
I'll cry to my lost wisdom,
I'll plea:
"Please, my journey for truth, don't leave me.
I'm not ready to go yet! I'll return, I swear!"
And it's in that desperation you'll see me
climb out the hole I pushed myself into
And I'll say: "I'm sorry, I made a mistake."
Thank you, and have a good day :)
I'm still afraid of what I wrote, but my internal friction is telling me that I'm just experiencing social anxiety and fear of sharing my art. No, I don't need to share all my thoughts and that's why I see this section of this work as the "falling action" where I let myself ease away from the tension I just put myself through. Hopefully, through my social anxiety and psychological evaluation of my emotions throughout the poem, those last invisible feelings the reader will have may dissipate away. This last stream-of-consciousness text is my requiem, for the imagined identity I thought I just invented and then killed in front of the reader, but perhaps there was no identity at all. I feared so much that the perfect image of myself that I created had dissipated in front of her eyes, his eyes, their eyes, that I covered my bases before knowing what my bases even were. I truly hope, in time, the biggest clamp on my art one day unstucks itself, and I can be as free in the publics eye as I am when I know no one is listening. Or, rather, I hope the friction between my view of my art and the publics view turns into a sproutling of beauty, rather than a hammer on my sapling. After all, no one asked to be a hammer, and I would feel bad if I destroyed another artists work. Thus, for my own sake and the emotional bandwidth of others, I'll give my work to them in all of its anxious and afraid glory. They don't need to know what I want them to know, my mastery should be enough so that they feel it without me saying.
Sorry that Section I of the Mele gets a little cult-y, lol. I really like to speak in big terms and share my views, and the way I do it can come across as very forceful at times. I do hope that a lot of people will share my opinions. As my mantra goes, "love the plurality of discourse, but use it to understand your answer." I need to understand the way I view the world, what my thoughts mean on a deeper level. To summarize the purpose of this website: I want to teach the knowledge I'm learning. I'm gonna post reviews, essays, and answers to all sorts of things. Reviews of classics, essays on philosophy, and answers to math problems! Then, I'm gonna Feynman method your ass! Hahahaha. Physics. Mathematics. Philosophy, all of it! However, my viewpoint is radically different than a traditional academic. I'm a Queer Filipino. I'm also part Native Hawaiian. When I was 5, my parents were priced out of paradise, and I've been angry about it since I was 14! I value native stories, collectivism and equality instinctually, and I let those core values drive my viewpoint. Even epistemologically I see every viewpoint as a different island, giving all models equal footing in the epistemology ohana. However, I filter the "correct" and "incorrect" models based on whether or not I feel that I've reached my goal (at least with the sources I'm reading.) And, of course, that goalpost is ever changing. Hence, the mantra. It's also important to distinguish between "feeling" that you reached your goal, and reaching your goal. Sure, I can find the answer that I want (like a pseudoscientist), but I'll feel that I'm missing something even in the answer I've provided. If I keep looping in on the same answer, and that answer never evolves, I won't "feel" that I've reached my goal. Rather, I'll have just convinced myself of a goal that I wanted, which, to me, isn't the same as "feeling" that I reached the goal. In truth, the "feeling of reaching a goal" is much more abstract then seeking the goal itself. I cannot see the goal (answer) that I feel, but I can create a semblance of it based on what I think I want. At the moment, I'm taking a break to focus on my mental health, but I'm still studying in the background. I truly, truly love maths and physics. They're my favorite things to do! But as of now, I cannot handle the cut-throat pace of university even though I wish I could. Not for any "more efficiency = more work" capitalist reasons. Rather, I'm so intellectually curious that I desperately wanna learn faster and more efficiently so I can know more things! Capitalism be damned, I'd take being unemployed if it gave me more time to learn everything!
March 30th 2026
I created this website today, mostly as a personal means of keeping track of my progress, but I'm also highly aware that it's possible someone might come across this content in the future, even if I don't want them to. I'm making this catalogue of edits as a backdrop to my thoughts and thought process, so that anyone who does find this, even if it's just one person, may see how I struggle and cope with my polymathic interests and how I've geared my brain to learn as much things in the most general scope as possible before I die. This is a lifelong journey and, hopefully, someone else can learn from this and be inspired by it. I learned basic HTML today, and only added the texts for now. I'm going to go on a walk, but before that I'm going to get out my grievances and thought patterns in my diatribe below.
I really do love learning new things, but initially I didn't wanna learn basic html. I wanted to just make the fancy website and skip everything and add the images in, but alas I decided I needed to actually learn the basic basics. What I decided I would do to help me learn the "boring" parts of this was to make it super fun for me, and make learning the boring, basic parts the goal. AKA, I should just be as creative as possible with the fundamentals and basics, since being creative with what you know is why I wanna learn so many things. If I know more things, I have more ability to be creative. By constricting my focus to create things based on what I'm learning (the basics) and to delve my whole soul into what I know how to do AT THE MOMENT, (text without visual aids, just pure writing paragraphs), I'm cultivating a way to remember and master these fundamental tools I need in my tool box. Hence, the long, rambling style and nature of this website. Whatever this site evolves into will be a result of this fundamental decision made at the early stages of this project, to make it a super rambley-incoherent prose-like mess in order to teach me the basics of html. Some more barriers for me was wanting to watch YouTube, since I would've felt like I was learning something more advanced than basic HTML, but in reality I would just be hearing someone's opinion and not doing something "more productive" than learning HTML. Opinions are opinions, and they gave me good inspiration, but they did not give me skill, which is what I actually desire. Another thing that's holding me back today is my want to do physics, mathematics, and read. I'd decided I wouldn't watch TV or make music today so I could focus on other things, and it's worked out so far! Besides that, it's a beautiful day outside, the sun is out and shinging through my window and I wanna go outside and experience it before the sun falls over the horizon and the bright blue of the clear sky above me simmers down to warm, orange hues. (Man, I've gotta work on my 5-senses description. Perhaps I'll do that while I'm on my walk.) Thus, I've decided to focus on going outside and going on a nice walk to experience the sunlight, creating a nice separation between this part of my project and the next, which will be adding images to it to give it personality. I'll admit, wanting to go outside is a reason I'm leaving the site now, but... yeah, this is a valid reason to leave! Unlike the others (distractions, just capitalism stuff.) Nature over the internet, people!